It is in human nature to question ourselves. We question our abilities to advance and move forward in the direction of our dreams. When people ask themselves ‘Why Me?‘ it is usually because they are in denial of unexpected consequences that take place around us and shake our lives. It breaks my heart to admit it but I was also the one asking the same question. Why Me? The only difference is that I was asking it at unusual times.
For example, when I walked into our brand new semi furnished apartment in Dubai for the first time and thanked God out loud but secretly asked my heart if I’m worthy of getting more than I deserve.
Or when I was new in the business and this beautiful bride called me and asked me if I will shoot her wedding day? I thanked her for getting in touch with me, said yes, put the phone down and panicked for having her put so much trust in the newbie like myself.
Also, when one of the ever-so-talented-twins from Haseen by MJ called me and told me that she can’t even imagine of anyone else to do her wedding photography than me. My heart melted and I questioned myself if I’m worthy of her trust.
When on one of those long nights when I couldn’t sleep and had a long late night conversation with my niece and she convinced me to start writing again in Urdu. I doubted my ability to write again and feared the possibility of putting myself out there.
Another time, when an older sister like family friend called me to ask for her family photo-shoot. I felt overly humbled that she chose me as her photographer & to spend some time with her beautiful family.
I constantly questioned myself if I was worthy of things/trust/faith that I was receiving. Things changed & I realized instead of asking ‘Why Me?’ I needed to change the way I was looking at things. Instead of holding back and trying to prove myself to doubters and nay-sayers, I started working on putting my heart & soul in proving those right who actually had more faith in me and my abilities than my own myself.
‘Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.’
Yes, I have started an Urdu blog, covered countless weddings of all cultures, and overcame my own fears. As soon as I finish this post, I will get my gear ready for tonight’s event. [exciting, I know ;)] Before I close, I want to thank all of those for putting their trust in me. If it wasn’t for you, I would never have trust in myself and would not be where I am today.